The change in weather always brings this mix of sadness and loneliness.
“You are not the person you used to be 3 years ago anymore….” – to myself
I have been living in London for almost three years now. Life isn’t as easy or simple as I imagined it would be when I was younger. Back then, I had so many dreams of who I wanted to be. The only one that’s slowly coming true is my career, which has become such a big part of my life and honestly, it’s still just the beginning.
I never imagined I would reach this point in life, growing with my own two hands. I have gone through suffering, tears, desperation, homesickness, heartbreak, and the feeling of having nowhere to go. But through it all, I never gave up and for that, I feel deeply grateful.
Even when life seems to settle down, new problems always arise.
“Loneliness.” These past three years have felt both slow and fast at the same time. And yet, I still cannot fully deal with loneliness. It was my best friend before I moved away on my own. I thought I would love living alone, going anywhere I wanted, being free. But I’ve realised that having someone by your side, sharing experiences, is one of the most precious things in life.
Living in London sounds like a dream. And in many ways, it is but it’s also painful inside. Still, as the person I am, I will never stop searching for a way to overcome this loneliness.
It’s time for bed, then tomorrow morning, I’ll be stuck on the tube once again.
Thank you for reading.
